I go through phases when I completely mess up every possible thing. My cooking reflects my moods and situations at that present moment. I'm normally a fairly good cook, but when something sidetracks me, I become the worst cook ever. Simple tasks are muddled and make the situation even worse. I think I just try too hard. Why do I do that? It’s like I'm fighting my inner battles and that destroys whatever I'm doing at that moment. My inner self is critically injured and the wounds show up in my actions.
Stuck in a rut. That’s where I am. Instead of floundering and struggling to escape, I guess I should stay calm, take a step back, and deal with the situation with a clear, rational head. Otherwise I'm just sinking more into mud. Exhausting myself and covering myself with more dirt.
The one way I can think of looking at the situation from a new point is by writing it all down. And that’s what I'm doing right now. Writing about it to help myself out of this mess.