I want to forget
How stupid I have been.
The nonsense I thought,
Imagined and seen.
I want to shut the door
On those distant memories
Which trouble and worry me
Each day and night, endlessly.
But every time that image
Comes before my eyes,
I forget everything
And my happiness deny.
How am I to break away?
I wonder if I will ever be okay.
I thought I knew myself,
But now I'm not so sure.
I hate the uncertainty and the mystery
For once, I want to know.
I no longer want to grope around
In the frightening dark,
Trying to find something
That I don't even know about.
I don't want to be distracted
I don't want to feel helpless.
I need to reach the targets that I have set,
And to be the person whom in my dreams I've met.
I am striving to forget all my stupid mistakes
But I am trying to learn from them,
Each day for as long as it takes.
I know that I will do well and that I will go far,
And that the child in me will be proud to see
How far I have come and what I've come to be.